You see, when you come out of a room after you have been raped, you see no one and you walk no where, because the pain is so great and after people have seen the blood they do not see the child's face of shame and torment, never again to be an innocent child and never again to trust anyone.
How do you think we can forgive after what was done to us as little innocent children? and this is why we call on God to forgive, because we can not. We live our lives of shame for the rest of our lives and I for one will never be alone with a priest ever again.
And yes, I am going to see a counselor next week, so please God I will be helped to see things in a different light. I can not for the life of me think how a priest can do what they did to children and not a thing is done about it. Where is the justice in this and we see these priest go out to do it again and again.
NEVER, NEVER LET YOUR CHILDREN AND GRANDCHILDREN ALONE WITH THE PRIEST, HE WILL DO IT AGAIN.
I found out in 1997 at a Reunion of the first orphanage I was at, when a women came up to me and told me after 40 years that she knew three out of the eight women who sexually abused me and then I was to find out that I was not the only baby they had picked out to sexually abuse each night.
This sexual abuse by the same three women had gone on for many years and you know I left Christchurch because of the fear of someone coming up to me and saying this to me and would you believe it, that is just what happened. I was so gutted, It killed me and still is tormenting me.
Sexual abuse of babies and little innocent children is such a vile, evil. discussing, shameful, painful action, from these men and women of god. I am so lost and I have lost my soul. They destroyed me, knowing that what they were doing, was wrong and evil, they still did it. They had no FEAR of God, as they thumped into us wee children, while they were raping us. We feared God that much, that we would do what ever the priest, nuns and older girls told us to do. We were like robots. Well puppets, with them pulling the strings.