Give me, my Time to Heal

Give my my time to talk and tell them, so as I can heal. And I say again, unless you have gone though the same as me, please do not judge me and many of others who have been abuse by nuns and priest. You do not know what I had to endure during these. 24years and still now I can not cope with this pain, I need some one to help me to carry my cross as it gets heavy from day to day.

Every day there is a reminder of the abuse which the Nazareth House nuns did to me and try as I might to forget it, I can't. To forgive no. I will let Jesus do that, as I can not, He is all forgiving. Jesus I am sure that you know what I am saying here as you saw everything that the Nazareth House nuns did to me, please forgive them as I can not.

I am an empty shell, which the Nazareth House nuns left me and to live my life as a normal person should, I can not. Ever day is a struggle for me but as long as I am alive I will do all I can to bring justice to the unwanted abuse children of Nazareth House.

Yes each time I talk about the abuse which was done to me or any of us, it is like being abuse again and again and what's more if I see TV, read the papers it brings everything back as if it was today that it happened to me. So please give me my time now, as I put everything to the back of my head to try to forget about it, so now that I have come forward, I want to help others by being their voice, to be heard for them.

I was sexual abuse by a priest at the age of 15years old. I can not go to church any more and it has gotten hard for me since I came forward in 1997. I go to church and when I see the priest I brake down and cry then I leave before anyone see me in this state.

Even thou it was just the one time it had taken over my life, you see I was brought up in 2different roman catholic orphanages by nuns. 1st. St Josephs, which was run by the Good Shepard order and the 2nd. Nazareth House, run by the Little Sister of the Poor and/or Little Sister of Nazareth.

In these 2 orphanages I was abuse from the age of 18months up to 25years old, my life has been a life of hell and the torment I go though every day because of what the nuns/priest did to me, kills me little by little each day. I was an unwanted child from the time I was conceived in my mothers womb, you see my mother was rapped when she was 15years old, so being a catholic she went though with the pregnant and hence I was born. I found out I had a family in 1993 as the nuns always told me that I was an orphan, so I never look for my family when I left the orphanages.